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those first few months it felt like my life had turned on a dime. Mistress had pulled me into a world i had only dreamed of yet never experienced... my body was going through changes as She helped me adjust to truly living in a more feminine manner.
being smooth-shaven and soft-skinned became the order of the day. one afternoon i was out shopping in a small quaint town north of where i lived. It had a a few cute boutiques and shops that were selling clothing, lingerie and other items like scented candles and picture frames and potpourri among gift fashions, jewelry and decor collectibles. there were racks of spices, herbs, seeds, dried leaves, decorative cones and essential oils. owned by a pair of lesbian Women the shop had a feminine environment to it.
fall was in the air and reflected my choice of clothing that Saturday. subtly feminine i wore a horizontal-striped patterned top free of a collar that covered a camisole. i had panties with a floral design on them that concealed my chastity piece. by then my breasts had develop enough they were a concern for someone who had always lived as a man. there was a smoothness to my blemish-free complexion that showed i had a healthy glow to the skin on my face. it came from regularly washing it and using moisturizer every evening before going to bed in one of my nighties as had become my practice. appointments at a beauty salon every other month had given my eyebrows a thinner more contoured look that was more feminine than manly.
diligently working on my diet my weight was down enough i could fit into the new pair of girls skinny-jeans that had faux pockets sewn shut. that meant i wouldn't be having my wallet ruining the shapely look of my bum instead keeping it in my coat pocket. it was things like 'shapely' that had Mistress teaching me about being focused on my developing feminine figure and how it looked to others.
as much as i wanted to use it i hadn't worked up the nerve to carry my purse. i had done my nails the night before using clear polish on my fingers and a pretty red on my toes. i wasn't in tights yet my socks were those a gurl would wear.. i wore small half-inch hoop earrings and a ring on my thumb that had the word 'alyssa' engraved on it.
the masculine part of me figured if anyone commented i could always say i was wearing it for my girlfriend. that way of thinking spoke to the resistance that still existed in the battle between my burgeoning femininity and my masculine side that was diminishing as the weeks and months were moving along.
Mistress was always pushing me to go further...it was as if She knew there was an invisible line that once i crossed it my femininity would be out in the open.
later that day with winter around the corner i was occupied by a collection of sweaters when i realized i enjoyed being there shopping with other Women. that i felt a connection to them ...most were pleasant enough and some even engaged me in light conversations. i know for a fact a couple of ladies knew what i was looking at was for me....and were cool with it.
when i told Dominatrix Camille what fun i had She said i need to remember it is a privilege not a punishment becoming a Woman. that didn't mean there wasn't still a lot of work ahead ....that i needed to be pushed by Her ...that i still needed to have my days being filled with feminine-centric habits... until i found they'd be completely taking over how i acted....
i think it's true with many Women... that they like knowing a man is becoming like them.... it's an admission of sorts by the male... that a women's world is best ...and the Women know it ....and will welcome any men that want to join them there.
it's what Mistress wants of me... both DLC and now Miss Lady J want me to be hopelessly femmed ... She wants me to be experiencing all aspects of femininity...from having the pretty breasts to how i think.... She wants how i live to becoming from a feminine mind-set...She wants me to feel an attraction to men and for my appearance to reflect that.
hopelessly femmed ...it really means your Mistress has taught you to be grateful...to be living in a gurls world...
(thanks tara for some of the pics)
femininity is a present ...yes ...your world will be turned upside down....yes... you may even have your sexuality altered to that of a submissive t-girl....but that's part of the gift....
we learn so much about our femininity by having a Woman like Miss Lady J in our lives...
when Maitresse Jacquie told me to register as Her slave i didn't hesitate...i immediately acted upon Her order... that is the type of obedience She inspires....
there was a time when i never thought i'd be a Woman's slave...but like other t-girls i needed that acknowledgement to demonstrate i believed in Female superiority....
there's a power with Women... the ability to transform a man so that they live as trans-woman is definitely power...
even when a male is going through it he can't stop it... once a Mistress has him under Her influence his fate of living as a t-girl is certain....
a Woman will help a male believe that 'the woman within'...can be set free...
i've no doubt this Woman helped her husband believe that it was best that he embrace 'his' inner-woman...
it is an interesting phenomena ...the anal-tract of a male can be conditioned to respond to stimulation.
once the nerve endings are awakened a person only wants more of that... the male soon realizes it is responding like a vagina....
wave after wave ....the sensations keep building.... his penis has become secondary...he'd much rather have his pussy played with....
it brings out a gentle yielding feminine nature...to know he can climax like a girl leaves a lasting change...to discover he can have multiple orgasms brings him closer to living as a Woman...
discovering it is not a punishment but rather a privilege to have feminine orgasms ....often brings the desire to finally let go of their masculinity and instead always live as a trans-woman......
a Mistress knows this... it is one reason why She uses penetration in converting a male into a t-girl...
once a gurl is penetrated on a regular basis she takes on a gentle demeanor....
her femininity blossoms and it can be seen on her facial expressions...
once i adapted and learned how to use my dildos properly ....i became a believer in having penetration on a regular if not daily basis....
feminine transformation at the hands of a Mistress...
it is a privilege not a punishment... peace, alyssa
bonus gifs: 'oh what a gorgeous cock.'
'oh what a girlish 'clitty'.....
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