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being 'groomed' by a Dominatrix....
if you were like me you were out of your depth... over your head ...however you want to put it..... pulled into something that was beyond your control....
a Mistress's influence is such that you go from being a straight heterosexual male to taking on the desires and interests of a submissive woman as you transition into your Dominatrix's vision for you as a t-gurl.... and all the while willingly 'wanting' to do so...
the Mistress's and Her protege...
another one totally on-board with what She is bringing to his life....
I had no idea to what extent Mistress DarkLady would come to overtake my life....
one minute it seemed like i was just cruising along Her page on the FemDom Society... the next minute i was listening as She told me how She enjoys femming males and that i would make a nice protege for Her.... that i would enjoy what She brought to my life....
it's such an odd feeling to know you've been collared by a woman...
that in time She would alter your sexual orientation....that you'd develop a fondness for sucking on a cock...
as part of my grooming Mistress was up front about it.... She no longer wanted me to think of Women in sexual terms... i was forbidden from dating them.... the truth is the last 2 Women i dated thoroughly dominated me both in the bedroom and outside it.... the one mounted me as i lay there absorbing every thrust ....and the other told me She wanted to be inside me...
in becoming one i was to focus more on being sexually attracted to men....it meant the days of thinking about bedding a Woman would be put behind me...that was for men and lesbians...not me...
She told me there are lots of former males who have come to enjoy the company of men....and who spend a considerable amount of time making themselves pretty for just that reason...
groomed :
X) prepared or trained by someone for a particular purpose or activity.
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X) having a clean and neat appearance.... i.e. a Feminine grooming regimen...
X) a Dominatrix forming a relationship with a male sub with the intention of utilizing psychological influence in order to lead him to transform into a transgendered woman with a new set of values, sexual orientation and manner of going through life as a t-gurl-slave for a Mistress...
on one level being groomed feminine is about a Mistress changing the way Her male protege thinks....
there was a time when other than a cursory glance that i 'never' noticed patterns and designs on women's clothing or lingerie...
that's no longer the case.... these days i notice the tiny details of feminine delicate-wear and outfits....the frilled lace edging....
the colorful designs....
the intricate embroidering of a floral pattern on my bra's and panties...
the woven pattern of stocking tops.....
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let's talk about boobies....
i want to touch on how Mistress changed my nipples.... they went from small masculine body parts that would actually hurt after being squeezed for a few seconds....
first off i knew my thinking had been altered when Mistress broached the topic of being on estrogen and growing breasts like other t-girls....
i didn't give it a second thought ordered the tabs and began taking them the moment they arrived....
Mistress spoke about using nipple enhancers...,
at the time i didn't think much about it...
the same with breast pumps...
i watched my breasts nipples and areola's go from typical male flat-chested smallness
the more they developed.... the more i wanted them to develop....
they've become pliable, supple sensitive nubs that can be touched and squeezed without any discomfort .....in fact quite the opposite....they feel amazingly sensitized....
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"They do not see. Or worse, they see and refuse to believe. My mother tells me I’m confused. “You were such a happy little boy,” she says. She flips through old photos as evidence of a trial I was forced to stand for. Those photos are lies. They are propaganda. Curated snapshots of a truth I was forced to wear. The truth is, the boy she loved never existed. He was a shadow. A hollowing thing. The truth is, I have always been this — me — a hidden flame in the dark, yearning to be seen."
"Oh, to be seen."
"Isn’t that all any of us want? Not the polite nod. The visceral recognition that says, I see you. I know you. I love you."
"This is my protest. This is my demand. See me. Not the mask. Not the shadow. Not the boy you think you remember. See the woman who has fought, tooth and nail, every day to exist. See the flame that will never go out. See me. "
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with tiny bows dancing along the straps of her bralette ..... Natalie Mars...her take on being trans...
the knowing smile of a Woman that says....'you'll never have to worry about having unsightly erections ever again'....
at comfort with herself... and what she's become.. peace, alyssa
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